amusedFrom 1993 until 2000 I was in self-defense karate and jujitsu classes (teacher in the jujitsu) and obtained the rank of black belt. This was before we knew I had fibro, as that was diagnosed in 2001. My instructor - who I will never refer to in an honorable way again - was abusive (physically and mentally) to all the female students, but it was always done in such a way that it seemed like she was teaching us. Until we hit a high rank and then it got bad. She refused to believe that I was sick and always pushed me, often making me go into class without warming up properly. One night six months after I made black belt I was working on prone throws with people about my size - 5'8"/160 pounds. She paired me up with a guy who is 6'4" and probably 230lbs. The first throw we did, me prone with my hands pinned over my head, ruptured my shoulder. I maintain to this day that I was set up. I left class the next day and received an extremely nasty note from my instructor as a result.
So my shoulder healed with scar tissue under the scapula and up into the joint, down into the ribs. When I sat wrong, slept wrong, drove, or was walking it would flare up painfully and the only thing I could do was take pain killers and go to bed.
Today my PT decided to work on my shoulder as almost nine years is too long a time to be in almost constant pain from the old injury. So she was working on getting the range of motion to improve and commented that there was a lot of trauma energy in the shoulder and I needed to think of something positive to bring in the healing energy. I closed my eyes and pictured flowers growing, waves washing up on the beach, the wheat fields blowing gently in the wind.
Then, out of nowhere, a picture of Horatio flashed through my mind. She said, "that's it, that's it! There's the positive energy!" She (Mary Anne) was so excited she asked me what I had been thinking about when the positive healing energy spiked. I was blushing, but I told her David Caruso as Horatio Caine. We both started laughing, but it worked. My range of motion has improved about 30% in all directions and the pain has decreased significantly.
So now I have medical proof that Horatio Caine is good for me.
